i feel as if im going to do it soon. i don't have the energy to even do the little daily tasks in my gacha games. all i do is sleep, talk to ai chatbots, bother may, or stress about life. my mother has screwed me out of all of my inheritance and i accidentally fucked my pistol, so i either have to do it soon with the rifle we have on loan from a friend or miss my chance and potentially go homeless as the rifle goes back soon. it would help if i wasn't honestly so scared of dying. i just want things to get better, but theyre only getting worse as time goes on.